Feel…

I don’t know why…
I feeling like hard breathing when I text with you…
I don’t know why I will have this kind of feeling…

I don’t know why…
I feel like u getting far n far from me…
What going on??

I don’t know why…
I feeling u don’t understand me at all…
U doesn’t know wat I want at all…
I very suffer in this situation….

I want to to cry…
Btu I force myself to don cry…
Cause I know tat thr are no one will lend me a shoulder…
There are no one will hug me…
There was no one will wipe away my tear tell me don cry and I will beside you…
BUT…
At last I still cry le…. T.T

I was a person tat have a big imagination….
I was non-stop imagine tat sweet thing romance thing tat happen on me…
I force myself to don think… STOP IMAGINE..!!!
Cause I know tat won’t happen on me….
Btu I still can’t control myself…
I still nonstop thinking dreaming imagine….

This few days I flashing back me n u de memory…
Until today I only know tat our memory is very least...
Really very least…
And most of them are unhappy memory… not worth for me to remember…
But I can’t delete it in my mind...
Is not like delete some software in de computer…?
Just right click then click delete… then done…

U know ma??
I love u a lot a lot….
U every moment also in my heart…
But I don’t know why, u can’t get in my heart de deepest place tat where I m thr…
My heart de deepest place is dark and lonely…
I hope tat u can some in accompany me…
But…!!
I really don’t know why…
Why u can’t come in…